I feel insane.
Last month I was admitted to the ER, as I couldn't handle daily living anymore. I don't know what I expected--the ordeal was horrible for me, but it did link me up to therapy and some support.
I'm what you'd call high functioning. I force myself out of bed. I force myself to work. To shower. To maintain some standard of living.
I'm already out of therapy (again). A couple weeks of therapy and I feel like I've got a new lease on life. I'm cooking healthy, weightlifting again, reading, being social, and taking care of myself. Hell, I do so well that it baffles my shrink.
Then everything turns to shit. For no reason. Boom, phoenix, meet ash.
This keeps happening.
It's like a fucking rollercoaster. High to low, low to high. I just want consistency. I need consistency.
I think I'm broken.
I need to break this cycle. I'm just not sure what to do.
There has to be some sort of advice. Some magic bullet. Something. Anything.
Submitted March 06, 2017 at 09:39PM by Dr_Clobber http://ift.tt/2mvxxVz
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