The depression is back again with a vengeance this time. I have been having health issues with no success of them being fixed after seeing multiple doctors. My friends know I haven't been well and yet don't really seem to care to reach out to me in the last 3 months. I spend half my time crying because I want to just die. I don't want to commit suicide because I will be forever known as selfish. At least if a car hit and killed me I could escape from all of this and not have any guilt about leaving my family. My boyfriend can't handle it anymore and is leaving me. He left me alone NYE as I went to the emergency room for excruciating pain. He decided to go to a party and get hammered. He didn't once ask me how I was. I can't afford anymore therapy, my insurance is garbage and doesn't pay enough. I guess I have to be a zombie on medications now. Thanks for reading this rant. I'm just lost and lonely and needed someplace to share my feelings.
Submitted January 01, 2017 at 02:26PM by mwhite091 http://ift.tt/2isxkhY
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