I'm an adult male now in mid twenties. My mother and older sister basically decided when I was a child that I was gay and have made nasty jokes and comments about how I should come out all my life and it has ruined my whole life and personality and made me insecure. I think this is partly because I have mild autism and its not unusual for autistic males to have some feminine traits? Also this is why I find it so difficult to talk about sensitive topics.
The stupid thing is that no one outside my family has ever questioned my sexuality and I have dated etc but never had a relationship longer than 3 months due to problems with emotional intimacy. But during my most insecure teenage years I even started questioning my sexuality! Even though I had crushes on girls in school and watched straight internet porn.
I was a very awkward teenager and far too awkward to just say 'no I'm not fucking gay you idiots' and it has just carried on. Even one time my mother with her disgustingly sweet smile said, 'hey read this magazine there are some interesting cooking recipes', and sure enough a few pages in was a magazine article about this young man who was much happier after he came out as gay. Load of little things like that throughout my life. Honestly I've considered killing her but I obviously never will. But I feel like I can never move on until she is either dead or has finally seen that I'm straight. Even the one girlfriend I brought over she acted funny about like she was my beard. I think she wants me to be gay so she doesn't have to share me with another woman maybe.
My final revenge will be when I don't invite her to my wedding and/or don't go to her funeral. I think I sorted my sister out by fucking her best friend. Btw I have absolutely nothing against homosexuality that isn't what this is about.
Submitted January 24, 2017 at 10:07AM by good2findthisplace http://ift.tt/2knKYqs
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