I've been struggling with months of general apathy and depression. I'd been fantasizing about suicide every night (never truly considering it, just kind of like idle fancy), and then sleeping for 12 to 13 hours. My sleep schedule changes constantly, so I had woke up around 12 AM today, and around 4 AM I began to want to do things besides sit on Reddit and Youtube all day. After taking a shower and starting some laundry the feeling kept building and building until I was exercising and cooking a nice meal for the first time in months. Over the last few hours, I've been talking to friends and family who I've realized I've been neglecting for months. I'm realizing how much time I've wasted, and I'm actually looking forward to the future and making life plans. This is almost like a manic episode I'm so happy, but I have no history of them, nor have I ever experienced anything like this in my life. I just wanted to share with you guys, I've lurked on this sub for awhile. I have no idea what's happening to me, but I want you guys to know that even if this is temporary, it's made my life worth living just to have more moments like this. Don't give up on yourself.
Submitted December 18, 2016 at 10:09AM by SunSavvy http://ift.tt/2gP392c
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