Liking someone is complicated.

Hello everyone. I'm a 21 year old female and the guy I like is 25 years old. We both have been friends since August of this year. He's an exchange student at my college and we contact each other often. At first I was very positive that I did not have feelings for him. He seemed more like a friend to me, but as I started to hang out with him more, people around us started mentioning that we look good together and even the way we acted it seemed like we were dating. He came over to my apartment one night to cook for me and my roommates. While cooking we played games and losers had to take shots. Every time he lost, we would grab my hand and lead me away from the game and back to the kitchen saying we needed to focus on cooking instead. I would joke around and try to go see who won, he eventually pulled me into a hug and told me to stop being curious. I think this was when I officially knew I had feelings for him. I felt the butterflies every time we met after that, but the problem is we only hang out when he wants to drink... if we aren't hanging out he is with his international friends or he calls me when he's drunk. Last week, he made me mad by commenting on a girls picture saying she was pretty, using my Instagram. I deleted the comment and got up to walk away. He, of course came after me. He sat me down at my apartment stairs and asked what was wrong. I was so frustrated with myself because I knew I couldn't tell him my feelings but the only why I could tell him what was wrong was to tell him my feelings. I was so frustrated with myself to the point where I started crying to him. He was very flustered at this point and pulled me into a hug. He kept pestering me to talk to him and tell him what was wrong. So I got the courage to confess my feelings. It was very quiet after that. I stood up ready to go back inside when he pulled me back down to sit. He said that I confessed suddenly and he didn't know how to take it. He said he needed time to think about it. This happened two days before he left for winter break. We have talked a little, but it was only when he sent pictures of his trip or when I texted him. Should I wait till he comes back in January or should I just use this month to get over him?

Submitted December 18, 2016 at 03:51AM by beckyyang http://ift.tt/2hwDhfj