I have what I call "knee-jerk no" responses. My husband is a fondler/tickler/grabber. I'm not as interested in these things and find them generally annoying when I am trying to go about my daily. A typical scenario goes like this:
I am doing something mundane but necessary like cooking, cleaning, brushing my teeth, etc. Husband comes in and does any number of things: grabs my boob, grabs my butt, pokes me in the butt, puts his hands down my pants. My immediate reaction is to scurry away and tell him to leave me alone. He responds with his typical, "I'm just trying to love you" and I counter with the fact that I'm busy, to which he says that I'm always busy. Sometimes we'll just go on with life. Other time it seems to really upset him and it turns into a discussion about how I don't like sex, I never want sex, etc.
The problem is that I do like sex. We have GREAT sex, just not very often. He knows this, which is why it confuses him.
Lately, every sexual encounter starts like the situation above and either he continues bugging me until I cave or I cave because I feel guilty for turning him down all the time. In the end, we have sex and it's great! So...what's my issue?
I feel that sex is just a chore lately. I sometimes tell him I don't want foreplay and that I just want a wam-bam so that I can get back to doing things or sleeping. That's, obviously, not sexy and I feel like I'm using him. I feel like I run hot and cold and don't like being this way....yet it's hard to break out of it.
Anybody experience this? Why am I so turned off by the idea of sex until we are actually having it?
Submitted December 24, 2016 at 04:43PM by sbarron2011 http://ift.tt/2ipQsQC
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